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Fatigue   Leave a comment

Just hoping no one knows
That I’ve been
Going through the motions–Buffy

I am tired and uninspired lately.  I am fully functional, but lacking motivation or joy.  I work, I knit, I do the laundry (oh, the endless laundry).   I tried and failed miserably at NaNoWriMo this year. It was one more thing I didn’t have the time or energy for right now. I have been battling an endless sinus infection that will not die, so I’m sure that this is a big part of the problem.

I need to find a way to fix this.

On the upside, there’s a chocolate mud cake in the 2 1/2 qt. crockpot tonight and the kids were happy with homemade mac ‘n’ cheese for supper.


Posted November 12, 2009 by unusuallyeverafter in Life

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It Really Doesn’t…   Leave a comment

Three years ago today, he died. I marked the hours over the last few days. The last conversation, slipping away, the ambulance ride, the doctors and ICU, the decision, the paperwork and telling children. The anniversaries are over again for another year.

We, even I, say it gets easier. It is one of those lies we tell, sort of like that fib about forgetting the pain of childbirth. It becomes more distant, less socially acceptable to remember and feel it. You learn to bury it deeper, hide it better, remove yourself. It does become something different, something that is so much a part of existence and being that it isn’t particularly remarkable.  It is like the chronic pain of an old injury.  It may hurt constantly, but you rarely notice it or allow it to impact life.

Only one person in my life even remembered or noticed.  I sent his parents an email, letting them know I was thinking of them this evening. I am not sure if I did it to let them know that I remember or to remind them (or pettily, to point out that they did not acknowledge it).  If they didn’t remember, well quite honestly, I feel that they should, and maybe it will bring them comfort if they did.

Posted October 6, 2009 by unusuallyeverafter in Life

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A Long List, with Some Additions   Leave a comment

Things to do, learn and accomplish in the reasonably near future:

  • Actually learn to take a decent photo
  • Hike and build up enough endurance to go on at least a 3 to 4 hour hike
  • Knit a shawl
  • Sew well fitting clothes for myself
  • Draft a pattern
  • Keep a garden alive
  • Make a quilted table runner
  • Sew aprons
  • Improve income/work options
  • Make macaroons
  • Repair porch furniture and decorate front porch
  • Learn to decorate a cupcake well
  • Paint the inside of the house–Kitchen
  • Make curtains–Kitchen, Girls’ room, Bedroom
  • Find that forgotten love for cooking
  • Make puff pastry
  • Take a pottery class
  • Visit Lisa
  • Catch up on all the books and movies I’ve missed
  • Finish Girasole
  • Network the damn computers already!
  • Hang some freaking shelves to store random cute things
  • Actually go thrifting and antiquing
  • Improve photoshop skills
  • Clean out the shed and hang drywall to create a usable & pleasant workspace
  • Make that potato and sage pizza from years ago again…Field of Greens
  • Make tamales
  • Start working on handmade holiday ornament
  • Learn to spin
  • Find a knitting group
  • Take a yoga class
  • Learn to knit continental
  • Finish Coraline

Posted October 3, 2009 by unusuallyeverafter in Home, Life

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